i’m done

I’m tired and fed up but it’s my own fault.

Not just because I have been posting about our current situation way too often but also because I haven’t been limiting my intake of news enough.

This has been my routine for most of this week:

Roll out of bed in the morning.

Log on to my local grocery’s delivery website to try to secure my spot in its queue (it took 10 hours yesterdayย  ๐Ÿ˜ฆ ).

Jump into the shower.

Do some work during my allotted work slot to not overload the work server.

Get essential to-do’s from my personal list done before the daily Prime Minister and Premier press conferences, then listen to hours of post-commentaries.

See where I am in the grocery queue while doing other to-do’s, checking with friends and family and listening to the local radio station or Spotify.

Find something on Netflix or Amazon Prime to watch while trading jokes with a friend about how much we have over-eaten that day.

Fall asleep to Netflix/Amazon Prime.

Wake up at 3:00AM wondering if it’s all been a bad dream.

Have random thoughts about the future and fall back to sleep.

Wake up again, wondering what day it is because the days feel the same.

That’s it, that’s all.

Wow.

Well, I’m done focusing on the stress of it all because it just makes it much worse.

My week #2 was supposed to be about “creativity” but instead, it’s been about creatively focusing on the negative!

So, I’m lighting this Covid-9 b*tch on fire and walking away.

If and when I post about Covid-19 or our #stayhome situation, I’m going to force myself to find a POSITIVE angle.

That’s it for now.

How are you holding up?

Mย  xoxo

 

 

12 thoughts on “i’m done

  1. Yoga !!! And reminding me I m blessed to be a witness ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป
    We ve been in this situation since late January in Vietnam, with closed schools and tons of homeschooling. Itโ€™s challenging but hey, the whole world is experiencing the same now and those politics are made to save our lives … take care ๐Ÿ’–

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    • Yoga = big yes! ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿพ I tried a little meditation this morning, I think it helped. You’ve been going this since January? Wow, that is truly difficult. But as you said, we’re all in this together now. Stay safe, stay healthy! ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿพ

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      • We all have our ups and down obviously but itโ€™s for the best ๐Ÿ™‚ take care dear ! And reaching out as you do is a great thing to do. The distance should only be physical not social ๐Ÿ˜‰

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  2. This routine sound awfully familiar and last night, I think I had a mild panic attack because Covid-19 is all I see and hear about all day, every single day. ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ Hoping you and your loved ones are safe!

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  3. I get you about the days all melding into one. I used to be able to different weekdays from weekends by the sound of traffic outside my house, now itโ€™s just silence all day long, all week long. Itโ€™s only been 8 days of restricted movement for me here, so Iโ€™m still okay. Barely.

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  4. Maybe it’s totally insensitive but what I’m trying to do most of the time is ignore than any of this is even going on. Not that I’m leaving the house or doing anything stupid. I just mean I don’t want to write about it. I want to write as though this whole situation doesn’t exist. Is it insensitive for me not to acknowledge it? Maybe… but honestly, I don’t care. The level of anxiety I feel on a daily basis is high already. Thinking about this whole crisis is more than I can handle.

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