A to Z Theme Reveal

On January 22, 2022, my Dad died.

The night before he was cremated, I wrote him a letter.

A very long letter full of love, truths and gratitude that I had already said to him during his illness.

I wrote, wrote and wrote until the early morning hours until my hand was sore. I wanted to place that letter in his hands when I saw him for the very last time.

I needed for my words to forever become one with him and the other favorite items we planned on placing in his cremation container.

I was surprised at how the act of handwriting that letter to my Dad soothed my soul a little bit.

Since that day, I have been writing little handwritten notes to my Dad, here and there, whenever the mood strikes.

Sometimes I smile as I write to him with his smiling face is on my screensaver but most times, I just simply cry.

I’m stepping out of my hiatus to participate in this year’s A to Z Challenge.

My theme, “Letters to my Dad” will be based on random thoughts about him and the aftermath of not having him around anymore.

The “old” me would stress myself out pre-writing and scheduling posts this month so that I could kick back and read other participant posts during April.

But that is not going to happen this year.

I have no drive or energy for that kind of mental gymnastics. My plan is to simply pick a word on the fly and see where it goes.

Before I sign off, let me give credit to my blogger-friend Felicia Denise who provided inspiration on my theme. In Felicia’s 2021 A to Z Challenge on her blog Feliciadenise.com , she spoke about her own grieving and her posts struck a loud enough chord with me to remember.

I can’t promise you that I will make it all the way through to the end of April but I will surely try.

See you in April.

M xoxo

27 thoughts on “A to Z Theme Reveal

  1. Definitely don’t worry about scheduling posts or even visiting other participants. I mean, I know the challenge is in part about meeting writing goals and community, but your grieving process is more important than that. Good luck!

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    1. Yeah, unfortunately you know how it goes. And for some odd reason, people seem to think u should feel less because they were “older”. Thanks for the future reading. 💜

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    1. Thank you. And you have my sympathies as well. Yes, handwriting, to me, has a very different “flow” – less self-censoring and personal.

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  2. So glad to see you back, and so glad that you’re able to use it to do something good for yourself. ❤ I'm happy to read anything you get to post, and remember that it's okay to miss days if you just can't do it! Lots of love!

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  3. I’m glad that you’ve found a way to grieve. I wasn’t as close to my father as I wish I’d been, but I still miss him all the time. He died in 2012. I can’t believe it’s been 10 years. I see him in myself all the time. Mom always said we didn’t get along because we were so alike. I finally get that now.

    I’m glad to see you here, no matter how frequently or temporarily. ♥

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  4. casaeditricequiedit

    I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a parent is like losing a limb. Nothing will be the same again.
    But writing is healing. It helped me a lot, and I hope it will do the same for you.
    My heart goes out to you.
    Be strong.

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    1. Thanks for your lovely words. It is indeed like losing a limb. Yes, nothing will be the same so it’s going to be a new chapter to hesitantly discover.💔

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