christmas hallmark hell

I’ve fallen into the Hallmark-type Christmas movie hellhole again.

I say “Hallmark-type” because I once had the Hallmark Channel as a freebie for a while.

It’s always the same story over and over again…

Big city girl returns to her small hometown to save the family’s inn/bakery/hotel/perfume company from a hostile take-over by good-looking man. Usually this good-looking man is a widow who or without a child. Big city girl falls in love said good-looking man before she finds out who he really is. Chaos ensues when she finds out his true identity. Good-looking man tries to apologize but she wants nothing to do with him until he decides to leave town. Someone gives her advice that leads her to chase after him. Then happily-ever-after occur.

You get the picture.


The dialogue usually sucks, everything in the storyline is beyond predictable and it always makes me laugh when the main female character explains her entire backstory within the first 5 minutes.

Double ugh when the couple falls in love at first sight within the first 10 minutes and it’s all sooooo cheesy.

And yet here I am again watching this mess. Somebody stop me. Please.

Over the past week on Netflix, I’ve run through How Sara Got Her Wings, Christmas with a View and Once Upon A Holiday. I actually fell asleep through all three but we all know how they end so…

The only two that I actually thought were kind of cute were Let It Snow (a teenage version of Love Actually) and The Knight Before Christmas (a different spin).

But as usual, these movies always get me thinking…

It’s almost 2020.

Are there no people of color as lead characters in any of these movies or am I just not bumping into them?

I challenge you to drop the Christmas Hallmark-type movies that have a female person of color as a lead character. I really would be most interested to know.


An Open Letter to My Long Lost Love

In response to Day 9, “Reinvent the Letter Format”


Photo credit: GViciano / Foter / CC BY-SA


I almost feel like a teenager writing to you today.

I never would have opened up to you like this all those years ago.

You see, back then, I was afraid of how my folks would have reacted towards you, especially since they already disliked you (and deep down, you knew it but said nothing). You weren’t “right” for me, you would have been a “foolish” distraction that would go “nowhere fast” and in the end, you could never have “fit” into the life that was expected of me.

If I had opened up and explained what I was going through to you, you would have dropped everything to swoop in and carry me away into the sunset like in those romantic movies I used to love so much growing up.

But I didn’t open up and I didn’t explain it all to you.

I slowly and quietly backed away, keeping it all inside like I always did in most situations back then. I acted like the immature kid that I was. But those days are long gone.

Who would have known that after almost 18 years, you would unexpectedly reappear into my life in the way that you did.

You crossed my mind a countless number of times over the years. I even fantasized about the passion that would surely be rekindled if we ever reconnected, a fire that hurt to walk away from, a craving that I always secretly longed for.

Now that you are back in my life, I don’t know how I survived all those years without you.

Now that you are back in my life, all I want to do is to be with you all the time.

Now that you are back in my life, you are always in my thoughts and I am obsessed with you.

It’s so much like old times. We wake up early and stay up late together just to squeeze more “together time” out of our day. I write cute little Post-Its and leave them for you shamelessly all over the house and smile every time I see one of them.

We’ve only been back together for 6 months but it feels like its been years and I love it.

I love you.

There, I said it.

And I’ll say it again.

I LOVE you!

M      xoxo

Postscript: This is my love letter to rediscovering my passion for fiction writing through the April 2015 Writing 101: Building a Blogging Habit. Thank you WordPress!!!

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